Oh, hello brain! Nice to see you again!

I taught 17 adult students this morning. Many of them were new faces, but a few were familiar. It’s a new class but not an entirely new topic, which is a nice place to be. Stuck smack dab in the gray area between comfort and chaos. No complaints from little old me.

Preschool doesn’t start until next week, so my husband took the day off (thanks honey). This enabled me to get into school early to get some prep work done, get a much needed review of some more recent technology from one of the tech people, and look through some of the resource library books for lesson plan ideas. I also stayed a little late, and then ran to target by myself for a shockingly relaxing shopping experience.

I DID NOT listen to whining or have to pull two toddlers off each other. My clothing did not get stained or wet and my hair did not get pulled, even in fun or jest. I did not have to sing a song or read a book when I went to the bathroom and I finished at least 10 different conversations. 10!!!! Can you believe it? I was in ecstatic shock.

My brain got soggy this summer. The contour lines of my thinking were getting fuzzier by the day and my motivation to be a human being (outside of being mom) has been decreasing significantly. Looking at myself this morning, with vaguely styled hair, jewelry and eye makeup, I almost didn’t recognize myself. I looked way too put together. Way too human. I liked this person. Maybe I should hang out with her more often.

Not to say that I had a bad summer. In reality, I had a very nice summer. Spring semester had been insane, with too much work outside of home. Having time to relax a little during naptime and not grade papers or lesson plan till bedtime had been a nice change. We went on a ton of play dates, enjoyed laid back/unhurried breakfasts and got well acquainted with local playgrounds. The kids spent more time naked (ok, diapers only) than ever before and they loved it. I did too. Their little bodies are so very cute running around undressed. My son’s little body got very lean over the past 2 months and my daughter looks beyond cute in a diaper, round belly and pigtails. I love toddler bodies, so darn delicious.

But once august hit, I began to lose momentum and the last few weeks have beenm uhm… interesting. My fuse has been getting progressively shorter and that’s not entirely fair to the kids or me. Not to mention my husband who came home to the chaos and occasional tension every day. Poor guy.

And this is why today has been so very pleasant. Do I need to say it? I LOVE going back to work. If this is any indication of the semester to come, bring it on! I’m ready. J